Thursday, May 7, 2009

Frustrated!

I don't usually like to complain on my blog, I don't usually want to remember the things that anger me, but today the pain hit too deep and I just need to get it out. There is a man that Kirt has looked up to his entire life. I met Kirt when we were 15 years old, and he loved this man even then. He was one of Kirt's church leaders and was one of the people Kirt looked up to most in this world. I think this man was like a father when Kirt didn't feel like he could talk to his. I have only met this man a couple of times, but I have always loved and appreciated him for the things he taught Kirt. Yesterday, Kirt's mom called and informed Kirt that this man he so dearly loved had left his wife and their 4 kids and had run off with his secretary!!! As you can imagine, this act hurt Kirt more deeply than I think any other thing could have. Kirt's very first memory is chasing down the street after his biological father at just 3 years old. Kirt has been greatly affected by this same thing. I can't even begin to explain the deep pain in my husbands eyes as he told me this. I wish I knew where this man lived as I would have beat him with a stick. He will never know the anguish and hurt Kirt felt. I think Kirt only has a few people he truly looks up to and to have one of them commit the biggest sin in Kirt's eyes was truly hurtful to him. This thing just frustrates me. Why must there be sin in this world? Why do some people have to be hit so hard with opposition. I can't believe the things that have been thrown at Kirt in his life. Don't people realize the pain they inflict? All I can say is this, BRING ON THE DAY WHEN SIN WILL BE NO MORE!!! I used to be frightened by it, but it is a now a thing I pray for everyday.